Life Goes On

SO.... I HAVEN'T DONE SHIT IN THE LAST FEW DAYS! HAHAHAHHA! YES MOTHERFUCKERS I'VE BECOME A LAZY WHORE ^_^

Let's start from Thursday when I gave up on Jin! Well Friday came, I just took off his training wheels and let him decide how to live his own life. This means no more telling him what to do and when to do it. Well, I didn't speak to him unil Friday night because he had to go fix his phone. Well, I had just regained some patience back to be in this relationship and I was trying to be incredibly nice to him to make some beneficial changes. He kept asking me over and over if he could go clubbing with his friends and I had already told him once but this time I told him decide on your own and do what you want. Every adult knows that with every decision, there are good/bad consequences that follow. I thought he'd think of that but of course that was me giving him too much credit. After he said he'll call me back I thought he was just switching over to bluetooth, but sadly, when I called him back he told me he was going clubbing. I just said I can't talk right now and he kept asking me over and over, "Are you mad? Please don't be mad." I hung up the phone and texted him, "We shouldn't be together anymore. Whenever I get some patience back you seem to use it all up and I can't live like this. You don't know how to function in a relationship and you have no relationship common sense. I don't know what to do with us anymore. So, I think it's best for the both of us to just end it here and now. Good bye."

He called me back and asked me, "Scott, why are you doing this?" It was the first time he actually called me Scott since we've been dating so I noticed the sudden change in his speech already. For me, that showed that he was ready to accept our new status as acquaintances. I told him I do not want to talk to him after we break up because why would someone want that? He told me that I speak to all my ex-boyfriends and so why not him? I told him, "I'm speaking to you right now but you don't seem to treasure me for the very least. Why would you want to talk to me after we break up as friends. You know we're not going to talk as friends. Please don't call me anymore. I don't want to be anything."

After I said those things, I wanted to know why he would risk our relationship for one night at the club. I asked, "So who are you seeing at the club? Why are you risking our relationship to go to the club all the time? Do you like it if I were to go on dates every Friday? It's obvious that you wouldn't. So why would you go clubbing when you know I didn't want you to. It's even written down in my blog that I didn't want you to go." His defence was, "You said do what I want, so I did what I wanted to do."

I know... Stupidity as it's best. I don't know why I would tell him so many times to not go clubbing this Friday and the one time I told him to decide on his own, he makes the worst decision. I told him he was incredibly inconsiderate to my needs/emotions. Learn to think outside the box! After that talk, I just needed some space so I just said, "Good bye."

Well, later that night I didn't even feel bad for what had happened. I just felt angry that he couldn't answer any of my questions. He texted me "Farewell and take care of yourself. Please go get your head check by the doctors. I will not talk to you anymore since all I do is cause you more stress and sadness." I just replied to him, "Bye and I wish you answer my questions. I didn't want to break up with you but you don't seem to have any common sense whatsoever. You pushed me to this point. Don't do anything stupid." He told me later that he planned to get alcohol poisoning. Typical Korean... He didn't and he called me at 2:00 A.M., and we just fell asleep on the phone like usual.

On Saturday, I did nothing but spoke to Jim and Jin. I lectured Jin about relationship common sense for a good two hours and I even told him to write it down on a piece of paper so he remembers. I gave him two choices:

1) We're in a relationship right now, but you only get one chance. If you piss me off then it's over and I don't care what happens after that.

2) We're no longer in a relationship. You have to win me back by making fast paced changes. The longer you take, the more likely I would reject your love. We could date other people.

By the end of the night, he couldn't make up his mind so I'm giving him one or two days to think about it. Anyways, Jim went into the restroom and shot one out of his ass and wanted to make a 2boys1cup video. He thought of me while he popped it out of his ass. It was a big one. I may end up making this video with him just because Christmas is approaching and we have to make a Christmas episode for the children that hasn't been emotionally scarred yet.

It's Sunday, and I havne't done shit. Nothing special today except for new ways to hurt my nephew. Today, I introduced the titty twister to him and he seems to be scared. I even bit him today and gave him a bruise on his arm. I asked him if there was a bruise and he kept answering yes so I had to beat him until he said there isn't a bruise. It's like when you brainwash a child into thinking red is blue. I think my new goal in life is to open up a care center for children so they would love/appreciate their parents more. If their children are bad then they would drop off their children to my care camp and I will personally take care of these children. Yay another happy ending! The end. ^_^