Few Words Before My Sleep

Today I woke up at 1:10 A.M., and spoke to Jim. We had a very light chat, and he wants to make Jin jealous because it amuses him. No, he doesn't have a life. He exists only for the purpose to be my bitch. He's been leaving me love notes on his blog, on my DL pages, and in his heart. He loves me, but he's too much of a pussy to say so. Oh well, that's what happens when your vagina is so big.

Poor Va-Jay-Jay has been feeling upsy and downsy lately thanks to the fucking asshole, motherfucking, curry-cooking boyfriend of his. Just hope the problem resolves quickly. I gave him so really extreme advices today on how to keep your man in line. It just makes me angry when my friends are taken advantage up and even worse is when they do it willfully.

For the passed couple of week, Paul and I haven't been talking. We did like each other in the past and I thought that was over with when we didn't talk much in two or three weeks straight. He was so busy with school and work. The same went for me so we weren't really talking much except chatting ten seconds per day. Then I got a few calls from him asking about my next visit to L.A. I do miss my friends up there and his company, but I don't have a clear cut schedule of what I'll be doing each week. I hope I did though.

To be honest, I still really do care for Paul and I still do have some feelings leftover for him. The reason I lost interest in him was because our feelings plateaued. He doesn't know how to carry a relationship or to make it interesting but what he did was make a really strong, long lasting, first impression with me. He's one of the sweetest guys I've ever met, and I do have a soft spot for guys that are handicap in some areas in their life. Make that a very few because everyone thinks I'm an intolerable bitch.

Jin and I have been doing well this week compared to most weeks, but things are still pretty rocky and undefined. Everything is still in the air and I don't have an idea when we'll have a strong and stable relationship. Maybe it's just a matter of time until Jin and I are both on the same emotional level. Hopefully, that level isn't hatred or anything negative. After this week is over, I'm very fatigued with all the stress that has been going on in my life. My work, school, and social life has been a huge burden because no one has been cheerful. Everyone has been breaking up and at this point I just wish everyone happiness. Even if I'm the same... I think the world needs to cheer up and especially those individuals that I care so much about. Well good night world.