Such a Nuisance!

This is the third day that I've thought about Jason in a long time. As our anniversary approaches, the more immense these thoughts get. I just don't even remember the last time I spoke to him. I miss him a little, but these thoughts comes in and out. Sometimes when I'm at home, at work, waking up, or falling to sleep. One of the major concerns that I have is what if I change my number without telling him. He has no way to contact me nor does he know where I live. It's one of the last ways of holding onto him. Should I do it? Is it necessary? Could I do it? I've thought about the scenario where I would call him on our anniversary to say, "Hi," without telling him what day it was. That probably sounds like I haven't been able to let him go completely, and it's true. I still do care for him.

Maybe one day I'll wake up, and he'll just vanish from my thoughts. One can only dream...