Undying Love

For so many sleepless nights I lie awake thinking of you, and for those nights I have slept, I dreamt of you. You are truly an irreplaceable, and yet, I wish it was possible to replace you. It's been over a year, and still, I love you. Tonight is the night when I want to be hold by you the most. To just feel your touch once more, to look into your eyes, and tell there was never a moment when I stopped thinking about you. I can't explain what has been keeping me so deeply in love with you for all the times you had forsaken me, but it all doesn't matter. What matters the most is you. You are all I ever needed in life. I know that there's still some hope for the both of us, but it's so dim. I know that it's not love if there's only one person as well. Why does it have to be so hard? Why does love have to be so complicated? Why can't I just tell you that I love you without consequences? And during that moment, that's when time freezes for us. And during that moment when I do, we will feel whole again. And during that moment, I will hold onto you for dear life.

I wish were true but it's not. I miss you so much in the last year that I am overwhelmed with grief. I'm sorry I had to leave you at the very end when you offered me your friendship, but I can't watch you be with another lover. To know that place in your heart that was once reserved for me is now reserved for somebody else. For that very reason, I am truly sorry. There is no reason that would justify my actions, and for that, I carry this guilt with me each day. I know that I'm a coward because I'm scared to face the truth. I want to live in my fantasy just a little longer... because that's where I feel the most safe. Because when I'm there, I don't have any worries of losing you, but instead, we'll always be together.

For all that it's worth, I wish you well. I always will wish you well...